Shoes anyone?

i've been back from utah for two weeks now and the mess of stuff in my room just had to be cleaned up eventually right? well while doing that i got a little bored. everyone is always telling me i have wayyy too many pairs of shoes and after laying each pair out on my bedroom floor i completely object. i only have forty five pairs people. it looks like alot more when they're thrown into a big mumble jumble of a pile in my bedroom closet. i could always use a few more right? this past week has been fantastic. it really actually feels like summer now which is kinda a bummer seeing as we only have a month and a half left of it. it's strange to think that in a few weeks all my friends in utah will be going to lone peak and starting their sophmore year of highschool without me. i think that's when it's really gonna hit me that i'm not going back. when i'm stuck here still on summer vacation and they're in the middle of first term. haha it's totally all good though because i think this change is going to be good. it's just going to be really weird to not go back there. to see everything moving on without me. oh well i'm gonna party it up here. ooh today is my best friend lindsey's birthday and i still don't know what idea of epic porportion we're gonna do for her long distance present...be ware linds! and Happy BIRTHDAY!! i loves you so much!

anyways do something crazy today! suprise youreslf maybe? have a fantastic day!!

~Sarah Leslie

okay, i'm in love

i didn't think it was possible, that i could like the jonas brothers even more than i already did...but today i completely proved myself wrong. i made mom take me to target so i could get the Jonas L.A. cd and then i made my family listen to it the entire ride home. i don't feel sorry for them even a little bit. because this cd is a m a z i n g. i just wanna lock myself up in my room and listen to it all day...as a matter of fact i think i will. i just can't stop smiling.

GO AND BUY IT QUICK~~!!!!

SARAH

yeahhhh this is the night this is the night. yeahhhhh feelin alive feeling alive

i don't know. it just seemed like a good blog title. today has been absoloutely fantastic. in fact my whole week has been great. it started out Wednesday night, when we made boats out of cardboard and duck tape at mutual and had to send one person in it across the lake, and back again. my group consisted of me, Bryn (who is absoloutely hilarious and completely crazy. her and clarkie have a very similar sense of humor) Becca (who i just got to know, and is just really sweet) Drew (drew and bryn are twins and she tells the greatest stories) and Clarkie. we all got there late but supprisingly enough we finished the boat on time. the lake wasn't very deep and as we got to the place we were going to race them an extremely grand idea hit the fabulous head of bryn balls-barker. i'm sure everyone thought we were crazy when we started yelling at clarkie and telling him to get the knife. the knife was really a box cutter that we had left where we built our boat. so about two seconds before the race was to begin bryn cut a hole in the bottom of our boat and when she got in the water she slid her legs out of the bottom, and walked the boat through the water. it totally looked like it was floating though, and so technically we should have won. hahaha i don't really know why i feel the need to mention this it's just that it is totally epic. and then there was this weekend. youth conference. i'm thinking that i like it here alot more now that i know people. and i had known some girls from stake girls camp already so i didn't feel too lost. it was great fun. the best part had to be the drive home last night. we were driving home from downtown mineapolis in a freaking thunderstorm and it was crazy. it was raining so hard you couldn't see the car infront or behind. so we quickly drove to the balls-barkers home and hid in their basement for two hours until the tornado and thunderstorm warinings ended. it was crazy fun. now everything is wet and there are branches everywhere which we will be picking up off of our acre and a half tomorow before we mow the lawn. oh joyyyy. i'm really happy right now which is good, i still don't feel like i live here and i'm not happy with the highschool i'm going to but i'm trying to have a good attitude on everything, not be a party pooper. it's kinda actually working! ooh to make things better the Jonas LA soundtrack comes out on T U E S DA Y i'll be doing all i can to make it number one! kk well i'm going to go and write my story or read a book or do like a sunday activity or whatever. so yeah.
HAVE A JONASTASTIC DAY!
love forever and always,
Sarah Leslie

why hello!

okay so i swear i'm not bipolar. but today was exactly the kind of fantastic day that i needed to make up for yesterdays not so great one. i don't really know what it was. maybe it was the fact that i realized how curly my hair was in the humidity and i didn't have to straighten it anymore. maybe it was the fact that ethan and i are becomming even closer and i think he is actually starting to like me. then it could be the fact that i got to eat at potbellys for lunch and dance arround costco with mom. well whatever it is i'm not ready to get rid of that feeling!~ i took one more day off of strength training so that i could just come to grips with everything and i'm super glad i did. i'm just really happy right now. tomorow i get to wake up and run arround for an hour and a half...oh the joys of playing basketball. rachie!! i miss you too! like crazy! i was so bummed that i didn't get to see you when i was in utah last week! when are we starting our random fruit mailing club? and taylor! i'm sorry i didn't text you back! my cellular device died. i'm pretty sure that minnesota would be ten times cooler with you here! i can't wait for you and madison to come up here for thanksgiving.
okay let's face it. my happiness just has to do with the fact that jemi is on the cover of teen vogue. yeah they're so cool that they show up on a magazine cover after they break up! wait. i totally forgot. i'm here with my family. and i'm ready to have a fantastic remainder of the summer. even though there are less than two months of it and then b r a n d n e w s c h o o l. but i'm not even going to think about that right now because i'm in just wayyyyyy too good of a mood. i have to get up wayyy too early tomorow and it's almost midnight...basically that means i'm going to bed!
love forever and always
Sarah
p.s. i've decided in my extremely good mood to make this post blue...mostly because that's joe's favorite color :p

okay so basically...

lalalalalalala yeah i know. i'm the worst blogger on the face of this planet. and i really don't have any excuses seeing as i blogged the last time over a month ago. my life has become a crazy whirlwind and i really don't know how to explain it. i'm still not sure if i like it here. i was finally starting to get the hang of things and then i left, packed up my bags and flew to utah. i don't know what i was thinking when i did that. it was like dipping your toes into a pool of piranas and expecting to not get eaten alive. i tried to test the waters of my old life, tried to find ways that i could live in both. but after landing back home yesterday night i've realized this is absoloutely not possible. sarah smith, you live here now. it feels as if my summer is flying by, and as if i'm not going to have a chance to just enjoy it. efy was amazing, and basketball camp made me such a better player. and yet i still can't bring myself back to my new world, my new life. all i want more than anything is to get the hang of things here, to become a better person. yet here i sit in my new room feeling like a complete outsider. and all i want is my old life back. but that's not really what i want. i don't want to move back to utah, i don't want to be the same person i was two months ago. i want to live here. i'm mad at the jonas brothers. yeah people i did say that. i'm so angry, so frustrated, that i didn't listen to their music for a freaking day. i don't understand why they had to cancel their concert here, right after i moved here. i wanted so badly to meet them, and i felt so strongly that at the end of this summer i was finally going to get my chance. but noooooo. okay now i just have to stop with the complaining. i'm supposed to be here for a reason. i just don't know that reason yet.don't get me wrong, i'm not the saddest person in the world, i just don't feel like i'm adjusting to this world as fast as i'm supposed to and that is freaking me out. all i want is a routine, a stage of normality for just three years untill i have to pack up my bags and head off to college, and start my new life on my own. i'm not ready for that yet, i'm not ready for alot of things that are headed my way. i promise that my next blog post will be happy, up beat, positive. i just feel like i needed to tell someone this and since nobody really reads my blog anymore i figured it would be a good place to vent. i'm gonna try and pick my life up right now. and become the person i wanted to be for a long time. i'm gonna go now. thanks for listening to me rant on and on about nothingness. all my love,
sarah