maybe it's halloween

or maybe mormon trunk or treats are even more fantastic than the actual holiday itself. i loved being able to spend time with my friends from church, from the other ward, and a few friends from school. it was so great. actually, that is a complete and total understatement. why? because i love my life! i can't believe how lucky i am to be surrounded by the people i am, i have these amazing friends who love me for who i am! i go to the most amazing high school i could have ever imagined i'd be able to go to, and if i do say so myself i have a pretty fantastic family as well. i can't believe how fast october has flown by, and it's a good thing too! i can't wait for the upcomming holidays, because everything is a first right now. i do have to admit though, i'm starting to get really scared for winter. my cousin ivory told me that i'd be fine as long as i wear long underwear. anyways, just thought i'd quickly check in and let everyone know all is well. there isn't much more i could ask for im my life right now...except for maybe a few of my utah friends to get to come up here and visit for a while :) love love love.
sarah leslie
p.s. it's really bugging me that i can't rotate that picture but it's still fantastic all the same.

it happened.

HEY! okay so i know i said i was going to become pro at being a blog slacker again but i just love talking to nobody too much. So i thought i'd tell you about my past two days at school. gosh, i love school so freaking much. even though it took me half an hour to find my locker today and i was looking for spanish and ended up on the other side of the school i love it there. i love that my foods teacher already trusts me with a meat mallet and i love the guys i sit with at lunch. i love the five mormon boys who go there and the fact that our school feels like a mall. i love my classes and the fact that the teachers are so willing to work with me and help me to get caught up. i love that i leave school smiling, that i already want to go back there.
the end.

happy one oh one oh one oh

That's what Joe tweeted this morning. so happy ten ten ten! Today has been a fantastic fast sunday! our church meetings were so fantastic! the lessons were perfect and exactly what i needed to hear in my life right now. Brother Kunz spoke on the trials in our life and the reasons that they are put there, how we are only given trials that we can handle. i guess i should remember this when i feel like i can't take anymore. later we received a fantastic visit from our home teachers, brother garfield talked to us on the importance of families and the blesslings we get from going to the temple. on top of that, he just got back from the albuquerque balloon fiesta and so he brought us four frozen tubs of green chile and mom quickly changed tonight's dinner plans. i'm so excited to dip fresh tortllias into a big ole bowl of my madres green chile stew. ahh mouthwatering i tell you. This past week has been an interesting one for me, i found my faith and testimony being tried continuously, yet as i look back i can only smile as i see how much it has grown, even in this short week. on friday we went to rockford for what was hopefully the last time e v e r, walking through the doors with our pink withdrawl slips. the most horrible part of that visit was when we had to go get the remainder of our lunch money from our accounts, it just happened to be the exact time that we had lunch. the moment we walked through the doors it was like twilight when the cullens walked in and everything froze. the entire lunchroom full of people was silent as we walked twoards the lunch ladies, after a few minutes of awkward staring they went to whispering, come on people, we know you were talking about us. well yeah, so that was super hard for me to deal with but we're done with rockford and we don't e v e r have to go back. thank goodness. then it was off to register for classes there. i love this school, i already love the environment, i love the counselors, everyone working there. and as of now i love every one of the 2,900 kids going there. it will be good to go to a school the size of lone peak again. i start tomorow! i have first day jitters all over again, but i'm not worried about making friends, i know this is where i'm supposed to be right now. the only think i'm really worried about is getting lost. with the four gyms, two stories, caribou coffee shop, and bajillion hallways, the layout of the school is so confusing. at least i'll get my exercise going up and down these stairs every day. i can't express enough how grateful i am to the people who have been there for me every step of the way, who have cheered me on, and talked to me on the phone through my many emotional breakdowns (cough cough Julia) i don't know what going to this school is going to bring...hopefully many good things, good opportunities, great friendships etc. all i can do is take the knowledge that i am a daughter of god, that he loves me, and is cheering me on, with me wherever i go. this will be a good school year, and i will walk away smiling and a much better person. of course, it doesn't hurt that this is one of the top 200 schools in the nation. ready for tomorow, it will be here in the blink of an eye and then, just like that, i'll be back to being a slacker at blogging. hey i'm really good at it don't you think? wish me luck yes?!

Forever and Always

Sarah Leslie

every word

There are days i get so lost and so caught up inside the crowd.
i try to life my voice but i keep getting drowned out
by the noise and all of a sudden
but somehow he hears every word that i say
and he knows just how i feel
and i can pray for anwsers
i can turn to him for peace
or just to be heard
and he hears every word

there are times i loose my ways and start to wander off alone
even when i make mistakes i'm never on my own
and when i need to find my way back home
he hears every word
that i say
and he knows how i feel
and i can pray for answers
i can turn to him for peace
or just to be heard
he hears every word

not one of us
could fall far enough
to be out of reach of his love
and he hears every word

he hears every word that i say
he knows just how i feel and i can pray
for anwsers
i can turn to him for peace
or just to be heard
and he hears every word
* just keeping these words in my mind as yet another bump in the road has suddenly popped up. holding onto the rod with all my might, mind, and strength for i fear that's all i can do right now. faith not fear. just keep praying.

huh.

YES. sarah smith is blogging two days in a row. maybe it's Taylor Swift's new song off her album 'Speak Now' about crashing a wedding that makes me so happy. or maybe it's the fact that i have the most amazing people surrounding me, cheering me on. even if they all live 2,000 miles away. mabye it's the Joe locket that i'm wearing arround my neck, fresh off my best friends first date that makes me so happy. yep, that's definitely part of it as well. mostly, i'm happy because i have hope. i don't know what changed in the past two days but i can't stop smiling. i can't wait to let go of my grip of sanity and live life in the moment effortely like i did before the move. i can't stop smiling. seriously people. it feels so good! and i can't wait to walk through the doors of my new highschool on monday. this will be my first day of real school here. the day when i know i'll leave with friends and high spirits. things are going to change, they have to. i'm sick and tired of letting people control my happiness. that's not to say i know there are going to be times when i want to go home, when i need a hug from my friends back home, i've learned that there are so many ups and downs in the past four months. but i have people who are going to be there for me every step of the way, cheering me on, wanting nothing more than for me to succed. i guess the only downside to switching schools is that i might not get to play basketball. but i'm pretty darn determined to not go down without a fight. i'm getting back into the daily routine of basketball, i need to make sure i'm pushing myself every day. and then when tryouts come and go. either i'm on the team or i'm not. believe me, i want to play basketball more than anything. but teams have been pretty much chosen and so it's worth it to me to give that up for this year and be able to go to a school with a better environent, with people who dress normal, and treat me normal. like i said though, i'm not going down without a fight. so people i have this week of no schoolness to make the transition and then monday my crazy life will pick back up but this time with a million and eight more smiles comming from yours truly. i guess the only thing i think you should do right now is click on this link and sing yourself some taylor swift. because she is one of the few people who can make a horrible situation like crashing a wedding seem desirable.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MRjZvuIyie4
Forever and Always,
Sarah Leslie

TODAY

YES. TODAY. i am smiling. TODAY. i am holding my head high and crossing my fingers that everything turns out the way that it's supposed to. TODAY i am driving to my new highschool, crossing my fingers that they let me and clark open enroll. TODAY i'm not scared of sitting alone at lunch, i'm not worried that i'll leave school feeling like crap. TODAY all i'm doing is hoping, praying, and knowing that EVERYTHING will work out for the better. After an emotional weekend of dreading going back to school my parents and i decided we should try one more school, see if we can get me out of this place. and then we looked, and they waved open enrollment. i think this is why i couldn't get into any other schools and that's okay with me. hopefully by next week i'll be at a new school, making new friends, loving life. i can't stop smiling people. and this, is something entirely new for me.
Wish me luck yes? i think this is really it!
forever and always
Sarah Leslie